Drama (I know its been a while)

Sorry guys, I know I haven’t written in awhile, but here I go. I just need to vent.

Drama

Llama, Osama, Yo mama, Kama(Kama kama Chamelion), Bama, Jamba(Juice).

 

Drama

I hate it. It ruins everything.

I hate when you have this group of friends. They don’t get along, but no one will admit it. Its just not fair, because I always end up being caught in the middle like the filling of an oreo cookie.

I can’t stand it. No one will admit they are wrong. UGHHHH. All the edits I have to make, all the veiws I have to change, its almost not worth it.

I know it will all explode on Halloween night. Oh Joy.

 

 

On the bright side, the day after is the Florida Georgia football game. I know its gonna rock the reservation. haha. Sorry, Inside joke.

 

 

L<3 ve you all.

 

LUCKY13

Bent and Broken- time to End this FriENDship?

I’m currently listening to Switchfoot’s “The Beautiful Letdown”. “Meant to Live”

Everything inside screams for second life….

So I was completely irrational last night, and early this morning to everyone I came into contact with, namely my mother, father, and little brother. To you I am sincerly and relentlessly sorry.
Last night I went over to my friend’s house for our traditional friday night movie night. Normally, its just me, her and her ex boyfriend, whom we are both really good friends with. Her mother makes us this amazing pizza, and there are snacks galore. I’ve known this girl since my junior and her sophomore year in high school, so it’s a good time to catch up on all the happenings at my old high school, because naturally I miss all my old high school friends.
Well last night was tense, let me tell you. Another girl, who is my friend, but may not be right now, decided to come also. I was excited to see her, lets call her “Angel”, and she brought along her “best friend” who happens to like her, and she likes him back. Mind you, she has a boyfriend. So it’s definitly hard core drama. Well, the boys didn’t show up until later, and the first thing “Angel” says to me is-”Jeez, Lucky, your butt is huge!! Talk about a Freshman 15!!” I decide to laugh this off, because that is my response to everything. Besides, I hadn’t seen “Angel” in a while, and I missed her. So we put on some music while we waited for the boys to arrive. We started dancing, and she was like “your jeans are too tight, you definitly can’t get as low as me!” and I continued to laugh off her rudeness.

Until the boys came. The hostess’s mother served us some pizza, and I hadn’t eaten lunch, so I was starving. So when I finished my first plate, the mother asked if we wanted more, and I said yes. To which “Angel” replied, “of course you do, Piggy”. Now lets get this straight. When I was younger, one of my favorite books was “The Lord of the Flies” by William Golding. My least favorite character in this book has always been the character “Piggy”, so this really hit home. Plus, she had said it in front of the boys. She makes another comment, and I am silent, because her comments are really hurting, and she’s like “geez, no need to get all defensive, I’m just trying to help.. I’m not gonna let myself go in college” and I am fighting back tears at this point. I HATE CRYING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE. I believe it makes me look ugly, and it’s not a weakness thing, because I really am an emotional person.

Ugh, So I just pretend to sleep, because, really this is making me very tired.

I try to leave and “Angel’s” mantoy is behind me, so she yells at me and is like “Don’t run into my car” and I’m just like “Don’t worry, I won’t” even though I really really wanted to.

I feel like there was really no reason for her to be so rude to me. Seriously, I am aware that I am not as fit as I used to be, and I really am TRYING to get in shape. I feel like even though she is supposedly my friend, that it is really not her place to tell me this. Leave it to my best friends, Angel.

PS. Please, try to not gain weight when you go off to college, I don’t want someone to hurt you as bad as you hurt me. This I sincerly hope.

Frustration really doesn’t go well with my complexion.

So we say with confidence, the Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can Man do to me?
-Hebrews 13:6 NIV

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity
-Proverbs 17:17 NIV

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you
-1Peter 5:7

And to my Family, I am so sorry for how rude I have been to you. I do not mean it at you, Frustration fuels my grief.

God Bless,
Lucky

Tuesday

So it says “Friday night lights”. Well, I guess it’s only Tuesday, but I needed to get some things off my chest.
I’ve tried writing in a blog before, but that didn’t work out so well. Truth is, I got two whole entries in, before losing it all. No, it’s still on the net, but I can’t log in. Such is life.

My auto-bio says I’m a Christian, and that is true, I am so in love with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, even though normally when a kid goes to college, they tend to rebel just a teeny bit from what they’re taught.

As such, I’m living at home while I’m in my first to years of college. Sometimes life is pretty good, sometimes I wish I had just moved out with the guys when I had the chance. But NO

Mom and Dad say “they will take advantage of you”, which I suppose might be true, but I think they were totally overreacting. Parents always do. Besides, they knew the boys I was moving in with, so what was the big hairy deal?

I’m in my second semester, and boy, its sooo much better then before! I’m taking a Religion class, granted, it is first thing in the morning, but I get the opportunity to meet other Christians, even outside of the Baptist school of thought.

We have this assignment, and I’m kind of worried about it, we have to go to two different worship services of religions other then our own that we are studying in class. A group of Christians from our class wants to go together, so we don’t stand out as much, but isn’t that the point? To stand out? We’re supposed to record our thoughts on the basic principles, practices and other aspects of what we see, and put it into a paper.

But that’s not the only religious pondering I get to do this semster, Oh no.

You see, I tried out for a play yesterday, I did theatre in high school, and my parents really wanted me to have something to do, outside of classes. The play was something about “Gate Closes” and it is set in Orthodox Israel. So if I get the part, I get to be Jewish, which I think will be an interesting study of the kissing cousin of my own faith. Don’t get me wrong, I really want this part!!!
Another thing about the play, I met this boy yesterday at auditions, and boy, was he something! He’s pureblood Persian, which, we all know that Persians are gorgeous, and well, he grew up in North London, so he has that Irrisistable British lilt when he speaks, especially when he gets nervous, which, it was an audition, of course he’s going to be nervous!!! He also speaks Farsi, which I love learning languages.
The only catch is, he’s very devoutly Jewish. I don’t know if that’s a real problem, see I adore hanging out with people of other religious preferences, because I see it as a test of my own beliefs, and on occasion, a ministry opportunity.

You see, my aunt was a very powerful missionary, and I am named for her, so I figure I owe her name, if not her, some justice and carry on the family business. The name “Carolyn” means “Woman of the Lord”, and I intend to be so.

well.I guess i have to go now. I’m kinda tired, but catch up with you laterrr

Lucky